A New Era, the End of this Blog

Dear everyone,

First of all, thank you so much to all of you who followed and read me throughout the years. I loves exchanging experiences and views with the English speaking pagan community. We can all see that my sharing has become more sparse throughout the years. As time passed and worked took more space in my life, it was challenging to keep writing. I did, but I did most of my writing in French, on my other blogs. Doubling everything in English took a lot of time, I couldn’t allow myself to do it most of the time. Also because I shared more about exploring life and spirituality through cards, which I wasn’t sure would interest people here. The exception was on Instagram, where I wrote in English, because the card community is extremely active there. But I’m not sure how many people here realized (I’m not good on advertising. I posted a few Instagram links, but didn’t want to insist on it too much.)

For the last year, my projects and writings have somehow evolved, matured, gotten more organized. I have certain very specific purposes, certain things I wish to talk about. Certain bridges I wish to build between the French and the English communities. So this summer, I did something that scared me shitless, but which had been growing in my mind for months. I realized the importance that writing and translating has for me, and entered a process of ‘reclaiming’ it. That might sound weird, but certain people like me tend to diminish everything they do. Because it started as a passion, you know, a girl’s hobby. And because it’s the internet, so it must not be that important…  I guess that revelation started rising last fall and it grew inside of me through the year, until it culminated this summer. The numerous ideas that I have just kept multiplying and finally exploded into a Big Bang of even more projects. I realized what I want to say and write could actually be a full time job when I count the hours. So, I stated that to myself for a while, and then formed a new vision, a new structure in my mind.

I decided to create a Patreon for that purpose and gave all my projects a new dynamic.

I’m not good at summarizing… So I did post about this in two places directly on the Patreon, in the general presentation and in a separate post. I hope that will be clear for you. If you have any question, just shoot. One of the main thing is: Patreon is gonna help me bring the French and the English closer together. That place will be the center of my news and bigger projects organization. As you must have realized if you’ve been a follower of this blog: it was no longer alive. My wish is to continue sharing in English, but with the smallest loss of energy and focus. With Patreon I plan on writing in English regularly again, because I will be able develop there the bits I was writing on Instagram (main language of my Instagram in English, because I had active French blogs, so I wrote in details there for my community), have a clear view of articles I wrote in French first but could be translated for you, etc. Also, I wish to begin writing new articles on more intimate parts of my practice with the Gods and Spirits, as I used to in the past, thanks to the proximity that Patreon gives (the restricted articles will suit well the tone and content of intimate posts, shared with an involved audience). I’ve always felt open to writing to the English speaking community about those, it will be a pleasure to do so again .Finally, I’m also trying to take back polytheistic services (in small quantity) through the tiers that allow people to get one reading a month.

So, if you’re still interesting in reading and exchanging with me I suggest that you follow me on Patreon (for free) from now on. This will replace this blog (plus it’s greatly accessible to read on one’s phone with the Patreon app). Paying to subscribe as a Patreon would only be needed if :

  • you wanted to encourage me in my writing endeavours ;
  • you wanted to read deeper personal animist and polytheist content (among other things, listed there) ;
  • you wanted to try out live collective reading or deep polytheistic monthly guidance.

Thank you from my heart again for all those years of reading me and exchanging with me. See you soon for those who take the leap, and goodbye to all that chose not to.

Advertisements

Of Daily Tiny Rituals

View this post on Instagram

(article complet en français sur le blog ; lien dans la bio) . Sometimes a ritual is as simple as drawing on a piece of paper. The circumstances arise, and you have to take that opportunity. No fanciness, no old parchment and quill, no big circle of candles and cloak. Taking the instant in its pure happening. I have a very busy life, and a very complicated and busy mind. My spiritual life is not easy to maintain. But this is an example of how I try to keep the connection in the daily. We have had a sudden, terrible heatwave the past 3 days. The air was just to full. So a big storm had to come and it did today, two full days before it had been forecast. . I was struck by the energy of the air, and had a sort of memory flash. *That* energy, that specific energy I could recognize. I could almost taste it in my mouth ; that June overload… Memories of past Summer Solstice flashing. "Taranis! Taranis! Taranis!" The name rattling in my head. The scansion. When I was a brand new polytheist, I used to work with a handful of Gaulish Gods. Taranis was one of them. He has always been hard to grasp, and we don't have much literature to rely on; all the more so since I'm not a fan of Roman-celtic syncretism. As a result, I learned to search for my own "UPG" as we call it. My own intuition and feeling of the God, in His raw Gaulish form. And it was always through storm that I could feel him. Shouting his name, praying, dancing, calling,… And June is often a stormy season around the solstice. Today's storm brought it all back. . I had very little time ahead of me, what could I do? I tried to get out of my head, to actually do something, live the faith. So I called. I called as I washed my body and purified myself. Then I saw that symbol, glyph, whatever this is, and I did this little, silly, drawing trying to putting all my intentions and energy into it. For Taranis, Hail! . Sometimes we don't need to do more. . #oldgods #devotion #prayer #dévotion #prière #polytheism #polythéisme #celtic #celte #celt #paganism #pagan #polytheist #païen #gaulish #gaulois #taranis #ritualdrawing #symbolicdrawing

A post shared by Valiel (@valielelentari) on

Imbolc 2018

Valiel sur la Voie des Dieux

Difficile de ne pas céder au défaitisme quand on n’a plus aucun repère de pratique. Le temps file à toute allure, et mon chemin sinueux ne reprend toujours pas de forme claire. Beaucoup de festivals passent à la trappe, l’énergie n’est pas là…. et puis contre toute attente, cet Imbolc-là, lui je l’ai senti. Quelques jours après, de quoi m’avoir laissé croire qu’il allait y passer lui aussi, mais non. Ca fait du bien…. Surtout du recueillement intérieur, mais aussi des petites prières, une balade purifiante dans la neige, un retour sur des lieux sacrés, et une petite session de création de cartes pour la saison.

Joyeux Imbolc à ceux qui le fêtent.

View original post

Freyja’s Friday (8) : The Lady and the Sea

Let’s do this. This post has been on my mind the whole week, held inside my body too, such strong sensations and poetic panoramas overlapping the landscape. I’m sorry that this arrives on Saturday and not the traditional Friday, but it was meant for yesterday so. I won’t waste an occasion to speak about the lady and share my views just because of a date.

Please note that this is going to relate personal experiences, and no knowledge of the lore.

The top shrine is essentially dedicated to Freyja, and it has been installed on an old, familial piece of furniture traditional of that house near the sea. Ever since I arrived, for a reason, I felt her. I needed space for her. (For those who don’t know me and don’t follow this blog regularly, there is a formal distinction : I am devoted to the Morrigan (owned by), not Freyja; in my mind, feeling Freyja first is… somehow weird).

I had not planned on finding her here, after my return back to France (after two years in Canada).  Why near the sea, and not in the North? Why not among fields and forests, and hills, and birds and falcons? But everything here resonates.

I feel her on the beach,
Step after step
My feet in the burning afternoon sand,
Or the cold sand of the evening,

Marching in her footsteps
I feel her as I walk on the shores
As the wind blows in my loose hair
As my gaze searches for the horizon

Why does it feel painful?
I am a mixture of freedom and sorrow
The world is silent but for nature’s call
I am serene
Yet I can feel that pull in my chest
The aching of my heart
A longing and a melancholy
Why ?

My favorite moment is the end of the day,
When people are busy elsewhere
When the light changes colors
As the sun crosses the sky
The sea darkens and the sky lightens

I am of roses and purples
Of blues and indigos mixed with crimson red
And oranges and gold
Tainting the clouds and sky

And then I can see and feel plainly
The taste of amber
Bittersweet
Both light and dark
Both peaceful and aching
That bloody sky and sea

I can hear now more clearly
That bitter song that has been haunting me
The Siren song, yearning and aching


Mardöll by Maris Pai aka, Marisvision

I don’t remember having read anything in the Lore that corroborates, developps etc this aspect. Apart from this quote that Maris reminded me of, I have nothing in mind bu visions and impressions of the Gods:

“Freyja has many names, and this is the cause thereof: that she gave herself sundry names, when she went out among unknown peoples seeking Ódr: she is called Mardöll and Hörn, Gefn, Sýr.”

– Gylfaginning.

For a reason that I have never been able to explain, Freyja as a Goddess wandering on shores is associated in  mind / core with a younger aspect of Freyja. It has happened to me before that certain aspects of the Gods are chronological. I see Freyja as a Valkyrie and a master of Seidhr as the latest aspects. I underlined above that “definition” to state my vision as clearly as possible: Freyja (Mardöll) is not a goddess of the Sea to me. Her younger aspect is tied to her Father’s nature, and derives from the same differenciation (which I do not justify with lore, again, this is personal experiences, might be unique) : Njord is not a God of the Sea per se; Njord is not Aegir or Ran, they both have a very distinct nature and realm of power. I see and feel Aegir and Ran as divinities from a different nature, that has been described under the following categories : “titans”, “giants”, “Jotnar”, etc. They feel intrinsically more “primal”, as beings associated with blunt natural forces. Hence, Aegir and Ran rule over what is associated with climate and pure natural laws of the sea to me: the winds, the currents, the storms, the waves, the depths. So what about Njord? I’d recommend reading lore and all instead of me on that point XD But anyway, we can say he has been associated with a more “civilized” aspect of the sea, which is more about trade and journeys, people that sails over the sea from land to land. Might be associated with fishing and the abundance of the sea shores too. It’s been a while I read on that subject. Anyway, somehow I see him closer to the land that Gods of the “deep sea” (mentionned above), not only on a metaphorical plane, but on a physical one (actual distance). Hence, I do not see Freyja-Mardöll at all as a Goddess of the “deep sea” either; She’s restricted to the shores, potentially sea travelling.

Until today, I had no remembrance of that above quote from the Lore, but my feelings and visions have remained constant over the year: I see Freyja-Mardöll as young Freyja roaming the shores, and looking over the horizon in search for a sign of Ödr ; waiting for the Lover’s return. The melancholy and the aching of the heart, and the tears of amber trailing her cheeks. I thus realized just how accurate it had been to offer her my broken heart months ago, doing that ritual of broken love, about lovers being separated by the sea (ocean). She is so representative of that sort of grieving! I have worked with her as a Healer in that sense, offering pain, sadness and all. I had not realized it since I acted on pure intuition, but it makes a lot of sense in the end. I wonder if she tried herself on the sea, as a sailor, looking for him on any coasts she could land (not sure if that’s the right English word). In a sense, she is a divine Look-out (or Vigil? or both?). A thing that I have not cracked yet, is why she feels so serene, while being in such pain at the same time.

Anyway, here we are. I’m not sure I could continue on this subject today.  But here you have it, my personal feelings on that matter. I wish more people could share they experiences with Mardöll, as she is very dear to me.

Freyja’s Friday (7) : Idunna’s New Issue

Dear everyone,

I cannot but spread the words that were passed to me. The Troth issued a new publication of Idunna, which is entierly dedidacted to Freyja! Hail !

“By popular demand, we are releasing IDUNNA #111 (Spring 2017) a year early! This issue was dedicated to Freyja, the Norse goddess of (among other things), wealth, sexuality, and battle. We feature plenty of poetry in this issue from Laine Mardollsdottir, Laurel Mendes, Lorrie Wood, Ani Greenwood, Loraine Canaday, Shawn Rowland, Meredith Himmel, Nathan Large, and James Moore-Hodur. Ben Waggoner presents a translation of an Icelandic folktale, “Maertholl”, that just might preserve an ancient myth of Freyja. We have essays from Diana Paxson on an overview of Freyja’s nature, Jeremy Baer on the form of magic called seidr, Loren Jones on Freyja’s necklace, and Kim Pierri on the elder tree and its possible associations with Freyja. And we feature our usual columnists, book reviews, news from the Heathen community, and more!”

>> You’ll find the pdf here.

>> And the paper version there.

Freyja’s Friday (6)

Do you like regular dates in your spiritual practices? Do you like concentrating energy and intention on the same day / moment as other people’s?

A group of devotees to Freyja created a monthly rendezvous to connect to her, Freyja Prayer Day, every 2nd Friday of the month ! You can keep it simple or not, do it alone or with friends, etc !

Here goes the idea:

“On the second Friday of each Month, let’s get together and celebrate Freya wherever you are in the world.

The ritual can be as large or as small as you’d like, as simple or as complex. The important thing is that we all focus on the energy of Freya and all that she can bring to this world.

This world needs beauty, this world needs magic, this world needs fighters – Freya is all of these things and more.

If you’d like to tweet or instagram about what you did, we encourage you to use the hashtag #freyaprayerday”

Join us on Facebook to keep track of the events 🙂