I’ve been dealing with a very curious fact since last June, concerning my relationship to the North.
I needed new runes, both as a personal wish and an energetical logic. My runes were old, dating from 2006, when I was a total newby. Since then, I’ve read much, learned so much, practiced an intense meditation cycle on the whole futhark, practiced alone, done drawing meditation on runes… I needed a set that reflects my growth, that is charged with my knew knowledge, new energies.
At first, I wanted to carve wood because I love the texture, the relationship to the tree. And the tree was going to be birch, my totem and fellow, as for the previous ones. During spring I had been gathering fallen branches, not dead branches, branches that had been cut alive by the goverment guys… (there is a massive problem of finance in the forest department in France) So I had sane branches of birch from different sizes. I chose one, I prepared the tools, and once I sat, I felt bad. Bad how ? I felt that it was really not a good time. After a few days, a week, I was even more perturbed since I understood that my runes were not to be either from birch or wood. There was a great refusal of the Spirits, or/and Rune Spirits.
I was sad, because I wanted new runes, and was very happy to craft myself (since I had very few tools and don’t do craft most of the time). I decided to let it go, I just waited and tried to forget it. Then in July, I made my annual trip to the ocean, and took my rest there. As each year, I experienced some of my most powerful mystic moments there, and this time it was precisely with the sea. I encountered and honored Ran in person. And there were a lot of sea-beings, sea-spirits around. We entered in a most unfathomable (deep) communion… and there, after a few days, I started picking flat stones.
Two weeks later understood then : my runes were to be crafted with flat sea-stones. So I did pick a huge lot of stones. But that was weird, I don’t like runes on stones, and it’s even worse on sea-stones. Because in my head, even if that’s greatly biased, I don’t associate runes with water. River water would do it I guess, and rain. But the waters of the sea ? It’s seems greatly weird if not repellent to me. But the Spirits, the Universe, made me understand that this was to be. So I started wondering and pondering about this fact. Why runes and water ? why runes from the sea ? I guess it could be a gift from Ran… but Ran is more of a taker. So maybe more a duty to her ? But I can’t understand what and why. Is it then about my strong relationship to the Spirits of the Sea ? But here again, why ?
If anyone passing there has any idea, remark, please do tell, because I’m lost in stranger waters.